by Dirk Michener
When I first got iTunes I saw the box that says I listened to whatever song however many times.Â I probably had half a million songs on there and maybe 50 of them had a little number 1 next to them.Â I was so ashamed about this and didnâ€™t want anybody looking at my computer.Â I would listen to music intently and make sure I listened to at least 95% of the song lest the little number not appear.Â If you listened to less than that it said you didnâ€™t listen to it ever. Â I guess you probably didnâ€™t unless you listened to at least 95%.
After a while I got sick of doing this and started leaving the music on when I left the house.Â Coming home seeing the number of â€œlistensâ€ just rise and rise.Â This made me proud and I didnâ€™t feel so ashamed anymore.
After I listened to every song at least one time I was ashamed again.Â It looked like I just let my iTunes play for about 37 days non-stop, which is ridiculous and pitiful.Â I tried removing the display of song-listens but I knew they were still being counted.Â I began writing it down in a notebook instead.Â What songs I listened to and the number of times I listened, and the date.Â I filled up about 30 notebooks before I decided to start storing them in my gun-safe.Â My daughter saw one in the bathroom one day and asked me what it was.Â I was ashamed and embarrassed and told her it was something daddy did in junior-high school having to do with basketball.